lost.

im feeling lost nowadays. i dont know why. i dont have time to spend with my dad even though he is back. i got plenty of work in my hands. i always wish to cook for my dad. just one simple meal will do. but wth. whenever my dad is back here there is always plenty of work for me. im sorry dad. guess im not a good son after all. If it weren't for my grades. ill be happily spending time with my family and love.
i feel really lost. what is the purpose of all this grades if i cant even spend some time with my love ones. i need help. i need guidance. i need you syg. ):
i love my family and my friends especially ang sio sen. without her ill be a total no one. god. just gimme one day to spend with my dad. when i have the chance to see him. im sick. wtf?! and in a few days time he will be back to work. if only you are not working there but here. if only you choose to stop working there and come back. i need your guidance dad. you are the one i have been looking up to. you are the one who inspire me to succeed in my work. you are my idol.